However, there's the other part of me that still worries about the future. I thought the anxiety would lessen the further out I am, but it never really goes away. There's always the "what ifs" and that's something that will always be a part of my life. I realize that there's nothing that I can do to stop these feelings and thoughts, but I do try hard to be aware that it's out of my control, and to let things unfold as they will. It's much easier said than done though.
I've also noticed that I've had unrealistic expectations of spending time with the people I love. I suppose it's because I was suppose to die, but since I didn't Death will always be knocking on my door (If anyone has seen Final Destination, you'll know what I mean). I'm convinced that I'm going to die young anyways, so I might as well spend every single moment with the people I love. By no means is this healthy, and I do owe it to my friends and family to live as healthy as "reasonably" possible. My friend Shoji suggested that I should recognize that people are legitimately busy with their lives and that I shouldn't be disappointed, but rather try to adapt accordingly. That sounds like good advice to me.
This month was full of self discovery, and with the help of my friends, family, and Andrew, I'm growing to become a better person each and every day. Spend (reasonable) time with your loved ones, and have a wonderful August!
Alameda County Fair
The llama wanted to be part of the action. What a creeper!
Don't get tricked into playing the carnival games.
We lost $20 trying to win a Despicable Me Minion Plush toy.
Selfie!
Fillmore Jazz Festival
The Fillmore Jazz Festival is the Largest Free Jazz Festival on the
West Coast with more than 100,000 attendees.
Having a blast listening to the Jazz Artist in Residence, Kim Nalley.
Andrew and me dancing to some Latin Jazz. I'd consider it a success
considering Andrew had a broken hand and both of us having 2 left feet.
We couldn't end the day without a selfie.
San Diego Comic-Con
It's estimated that Comic-Con brings in over $163 million per year for
the city of San Diego. Those geeks sure know to have fun!
The biggest room at the San Diego Convention Center is Hall H, with a capacity
of 6,500 people. Most get into line on the night before, and even with a
12 hour head start, it's not guaranteed that you'll make it inside.
15,000 people tried to get into the infamous Hall H that weekend, and we were
one of the lucky few that made it to the Game of Thrones Panel and Q&A Session.
I love you Robb Stark!
I was a big fan of Charmed when I was growing up, so I was elated
when I had the chance to meet Alyssa Milano during the signing of
her new comic, Hacktivist. She's even prettier in person.
I was randomly walking, and all of a sudden everyone was rushing to get line for a ticket. Naturally, I
decided to join in too, not knowing what it was for. Apparently, the ticket was to purchase Hasbro
Comic-Con exclusive merchandise, so I decided on the Deadpool Corps Taco Truck for Phong. Win!
At first I thought this guy was dressed as a poorly Conan the Barbarian.
My brother pointed out that he was He-Man. I felt like such a poser.
The Comic Book Legal Defense Fund (CBLDF) created live art, and paid homage
to the cartoonists, authors, and characters who've created the great banned books
of our time. What a beautiful illustration for Catcher in the Rye, by J.D. Salinger.
Cosmos: A Space Time Odyssey was one of my highlights of Comic-Con. Astrophysicist Neil
deGrasse Tyson, Writer/Executive Producer Ann Druyan, and Producer/Director Brannon
Braga conveyed their passion for the continued exploration of the universe. I was especially
moved hearing Ann Druyan, and her love of science. What an inspiration.